Mon, Dec. 12th, 2005, 06:11 pm
Who knew that my church would speak to so many? Who knew that I, the prophet of the truth would arouse the envy and lust that lies deep in so many tortured souls? What is it about a man or woman who not only speaks so firmly for the pain and pressure we all feel but who takes action in that pain’s name that makes all the boys and girls want to unsnap their jeans and throw their panties on my stage? Since I have opened my house to all of you, the legs of my audience have been spread wide and willingly. Such an honor to be the object of so much affection. A different person might be humbled by the offers of free love and carnal passion. I am not a different person, though. I am a Messenger of God -- a prophet of sex, love, justice and no mercy. Why do people want me? Because I am their worst fears personified. I am their pain, I am the boyfriend who cast you aside, I am the girlfriend that laughed at you when you stood naked and vulnerable before her, I am the bartender who passed over you in line, I am the snicker in the locker-room. You are desperate to be had by me, totally, completely, without doubt. For only then can you be devoured by your pain, only then can that pain be validated, understood, accepted. Only then can you see yourself for who you are. You want me because you hurt – and being hurt by me is to have that hurt made love to. You want me because when I look at you I don’t see eyes, nose, smile, I see your anguish and nothing but your anguish. From behind my mask I see behind your mask. I accepted my pain years ago, but I am too good a person, I could not accept that I was the only one who could find peace, I needed to spread the message across the world, give it to all of you. When will I strike again? Soon, my flock. My Book of Revelations will be realized in the coming weeks – for those that have accepted my message, my blade will feel like the kiss of an angel across their cheeks – but for those who fight me, resist my truth, attempt to interfere with what I was put on this Earth to do, hellfire will crush them. There are those out there – they know who they are – who feel the need to “fix” what I have already fixed, who feel the need to “cure” what I have finally made well. They are the Brutus and Cassius of my play; they are the great traitors to my religion. Listen close, both believer and non-believer alike – those two will suffer more deeply and more completely than any others. Those two will see my face and beg it for mercy – of which there will be none. Until then, come to me, my lovers -- let me hold you close, let my blade pierce your pain, release it, expose it to the world. Let your blood mix with mine and let us be bound by it.
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 12:22 am (UTC)
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 04:35 pm (UTC)
Wed, Dec. 21st, 2005 05:27 pm (UTC)
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 12:30 am (UTC)
I'm gonna carve YOU so McNamara/Troy can fix you and make you beautiful. K? =)
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 12:52 am (UTC)
pshaw, carvy is hella hot already
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 02:30 pm (UTC)
AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA You just said "hella." Man, you've been hanging out with me so much that I've officially NorCal-ed you. Yessssssssssssss!
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 11:20 am (UTC)
pshhhh, I've been saying hella before california was invented.
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 12:55 am (UTC)
I like that your mood is horny. XD
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 01:29 am (UTC)
haha silly princess,he is beautiful...
there are some of us who feel pain, but i'm just jelouse of you work, i wish i could do the same... dammit now i'm horney too. see what you've done?! many adore you, and i am one of many!
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 01:39 am (UTC)
what is with the preachy fanatical religious references all of a sudden?
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 12:44 am (UTC)
I always jump on the spiritual bandwagon during the holidays...
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 10:32 pm (UTC)
Weren't you going on about St. Augustine recently?
Sat, Dec. 17th, 2005 04:54 am (UTC)
if you watched the last episode you would have realized that Liz had said the same thing
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 01:28 pm (UTC)
yes, you are correct. it could be a big hint. because soemone (so as not to spoil, let's just call her someone) said something VERY similar in Tuesday's ep. But it could be more smoke and mirrors to throw us off.
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 11:35 am (UTC)
I see that you are horny... hehehe....
Tue, Dec. 13th, 2005 11:42 pm (UTC)
deladis: Oh "Ms Carver"
You make all us sick bastards/bast'ets happy in our collective happy places. Great writting btw. almost masturbatory.
Wed, Dec. 14th, 2005 06:53 pm (UTC)
see you next week, lover
Thu, Dec. 15th, 2005 11:44 pm (UTC)
I can't wait for the rollercoaster ride that will be on Tuesday night, please, could you carve Matt? Not like he could get any uglier...
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 12:43 am (UTC)
I'd certainly like to, but I'm afraid I'm booked through New Year's with requests. O.J. Simpson, Anna Nicole Smith, Michael Jackson, and Ashlee Simpson some of the names on my holiday list. I can't stop giving...
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 03:24 am (UTC)
Well well well, maybe I can be happy if you carve Ashlee...although it isn't really her beauty that is a curse on the world...
Get her vocal chords will ya?
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 04:09 am (UTC)
Hey, you know, it's kinda hard on the eyes to read your whole entry through...Can you maybe seperate it into paragraphs?
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 05:27 am (UTC)
Who knew you had an LJ account.
Sat, Dec. 17th, 2005 08:49 pm (UTC)
This one isn't official. The only official one is myspace.
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 08:54 am (UTC)
A perfect soul
A perfect mind
A perfect face
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 03:27 pm (UTC)
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 07:11 pm (UTC)
Hah! I rock.. Guess I shouldve googled the actual lyrics first. Hope the Carver can forgive me ;)
Thu, Dec. 22nd, 2005 05:40 am (UTC)
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 11:31 am (UTC)
Why didn't you carve someone last tuesday? I was hoping julia would've gotten what was coming to her. I'm dissapointed, Carver, I hired you because I heard you were the best.
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 02:30 pm (UTC)
Unless fx has their little clip saying that The Carver also has an LJ, I believe this dude is just copy-catting The Carver's myspace.
Fri, Dec. 16th, 2005 10:30 pm (UTC)
Carve Ariel or even Quentin please.
Sat, Dec. 17th, 2005 05:13 pm (UTC)
You truly are an amazing writer...
Mon, Dec. 19th, 2005 11:53 pm (UTC)
Jude, how's things these days?
Wed, Dec. 21st, 2005 11:55 pm (UTC)
Will you marry me, please?
Pleeease. I'll let you carve me! :(
Thu, Dec. 22nd, 2005 04:34 pm (UTC)
Fri, Dec. 23rd, 2005 01:50 am (UTC)
LOVE CAN MAKE YOU SAY/DO WEIRD THINGS. >:O
Fri, Dec. 23rd, 2005 02:04 am (UTC)
YES THAT IS PAINFULLY OBVIOUS!!! >XO
Fri, Dec. 23rd, 2005 06:34 am (UTC)
I can't help it if I get the urge for men wearing scary masks with no penises and a hot sister. )':
Fri, Dec. 23rd, 2005 06:42 pm (UTC)
nah, i get the hotness.. mmm.
Thu, Dec. 29th, 2005 06:05 am (UTC)
How dare you carve my face, you ho. >:O
Thu, Dec. 14th, 2006 12:14 am (UTC)
:( I miss you so much.
Sat, Jul. 26th, 2008 01:29 am (UTC)
Take me off your flist
Sat, Jul. 26th, 2008 01:31 am (UTC)
I've already taken you off mine.
Sat, Jul. 26th, 2008 01:32 am (UTC)